urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:radioxremedy My heart turned black and then the sky turned gray! radioxremedy 2005-01-24T03:54:07Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:radioxremedy:33609 2005-01-24T03:54:07Z 2005-01-24T03:54:07Z First major fuck-up of 2005.<br /><br />I guess I lost 2 good friends.<br /><br />Can I not trust myself anymore?<br /><br />I'm probally losing more than just 2 friends...<br /><br />I've become so distant...<br /><br />And things are happening that I wouldn't do awhile ago.<br /><br />But theripists can fix that sort of thing...<br /><br />I haven't been honest with friends... things I say are honest... but the things I don't say.<br /><br />Fuck the labels because right now life sucks and I feel depressed. Or emo.<br /><br />Just stay home... and work... nothing else will exist for awhile... I need to think and try to find the best way. I guess my choices are bad... no one supports me and I see why. I guess it's impossible for people to change.<br /><br />God, I haven't cried in awhile.<br /><br />I guess it lets me know I'm real. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:radioxremedy:17913 2004-12-18T17:39:46Z 2004-12-18T17:41:12Z <center><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br /><b>I was actually shocked to see so many posts! You can post more anonymous things if you wish... they are always fun!</b><br /><br /><br />1//I'm afraid of people. <b>Aren't we all...</b><br /><br />2//I don't think what I confess would be anything new to you. <b>Okay.</b><br /> <br />3//you know, i'm one fucked up human being. or i'm not? i don't know. i'm a bitch. i have bad thoughts. i want to be perfect. i want to hurt people so i can feel needed. i want everyone to love me, i want everyone to hate me and let me be a loner. i spend to much time on the internet. i imagine what my friends funerals would be like. but i don't want them to die. but i want to suffer. i become happy with what i am, then it changes. or at least i think so.<br /><br />i'll never be as good as them. <b>I am so sorry you feel that way!</b><br /><br />4//...Very afraid. They confuse me. <br /> <br /><br />5//Everyone I have ever met scares me, except two exceptional guys who will never know how much I care for them. <b>Perhaps you should tell them.</b><br /> <br /> <br />6//im gay <b>COOL!</b><br /><br /> Reply: so am i. <b>Yay for GSA~!</b><br /> <br /><br />7//i hate you <b>Ouch. Heh, you prolly have a good reason... or not.</b><br /> <br /><br />8//I am in LOVE with YOUR HAIR. *huggles* <b>*blush* Thank you! </b><br /><br /><br />9//I don't know you. <b>Is that a bad thing?</b></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:radioxremedy:16594 2004-12-16T00:21:26Z 2004-12-16T00:21:26Z <center><br />This goes to anyone and everyone who reads this. Post anything that you want, but make sure you post it anonymously. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post more than once, if you like/want to. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say. if you want, correspond something that involves both of us. that isnt mandatory. what is mandatory: anonymous <br /><br />Please do this... I want to see... anything.</center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:radioxremedy:2130 2004-11-14T00:50:07Z 2004-11-14T00:50:07Z <center>This journal is friends only!<br /><br />Comment to join the merriment.<br /><br />XD</center>